Daddy

Haven't seen you in awhile
Mom says you look bad
I wish you would come around
Because your still my dad

I'm still your daughter
No matter what you do
I'm always going to be here
I'm always going to be apart of you

You can't change the past
I know you wish you could
All those times you never came around
When you knew you should

Do you remember me
And what we use to have?
I was a loving daughter
You were the perfect dad

But things have changed dramatically
I haven't seen you in months
I wonder what you look like now
I just want to see you once

I want you to know
That I still love you dad
Your my own flesh and blood
So all I can be is mad

I can't turn you away
Its just to hard for me
When you and I were together
I never knew this would be

I never knew you'd turn your back
On me in any way
But I guess you proved me wrong
I still think about it to this day

Tomorrow you go to court
Thats where you'll see mom
They say your going to jail
Daddy what went wrong?

I beat myself up
For what you have done
You've left me her waiting
For someone who would never come

After you and mom
Got a divorce
I thought things would change
But they've gotten worse of course

I remember when I was younger
You and mom got in a fight
I remember hiding behind a desk
Because I was full of fright

You were both screaming at me
Trying to grab my arms
I was crying my eyes out
I wanted to be out of harm

I didn't know who to run to
I just couldn't decide
I loved both of you
I wanted to take both sides

But now that I'm older
I still don't understand
Why I still feel hurt
When things don't go as planned

I miss you daddy
Why won't you look me in the eyes?
Tell me exactly why
You have filled me with all these lies

I miss you daddy
Why haven't you come around?
I wish you would tell me why
You have repeatedly turned me down

I guess theres nothing
That I can really do
Just know I shed all my tears
For the sake of you

If you do go to jail
I'll pray for you everyday
I just love you daddy
I will until my dying day

I miss you daddy
But theres nothing I can do
I loved you with all my heart
I wish my life wasn't true

The painful memory
Of you plays in my head
The sound of your laughter
Is now considered dead

I have to let you go
Reality is kicking in
You will probably never come back
I'll never see you again................