This is about/for my cousin who died of lung cancer on 16/08/05
My life will never
Be good or full of fun
I will never smile
Or feel that I have won
I’ll never feel the warmth
Of someone loving me
I’ll never find the one
With whom im meant to be
My life’s f'd up
Only equaled by my mind
Putting me down at birth
Would have been too kind
I lie awake at night
Thinking about the things
That cause me so much pain
And bring me broken wings
Never a good day
Never a good tomorrow
All each day brings
Is a choking sum of sorrow
I coerce for death
I never want to feel
This just the latest loss
With which I’ll never deal
I’ll never get away
Or manage to escape
Wish I could slit my wrists
And tie my mouth with tape
Coz then I will not feel
I’ll never cry again
I’ll never punch my wall at night
I’ll never feel my pain
Why does life torture
Already tortured souls
Drilling in my heart
Cracking, bleeding holes
Bittersweet are my tears
Which fall feebly to the ground
Waiting for non-existent hope
That is yet to be found
