I'm holding back my black tears
But it's not easy as the rest of me unfolds
Because all these lies and broken promises
These same worthless words are getting old
Look me dead straight in my eye
And tell me you truly care inside
When all I feel is never ending pain
As I'm left behind with nothing to gain
My heart is slowly losing it's beat
As I cry so desperately for a helping hand
My breath is shortening quickly
And my mind is forgetting how to understand
I'm crippled right down to the core
And I let my hurt drain into the ocean shore
To many memories of what happiness was once like
And I'm sorry to all but I slowly realized I can't win this fight
When I was a small little girl
Daddy told me to never give up
But he never understood my fears
Or the pain of never receiving a loving touch
Just left in a dark corner
With nothing surrounding me except shadows
As they tease me with their helping light
I wanted nothing more than to follow
For them to lead me in their wings
But instead they control only my puppet strings
Though I remained there all alone
Frozen in time like a statue of stone
So as your reading my suicide note
If you listen carefully you can hear my heart beat
I left it there for you to remember me by
To remind you again one day we will meet
But I never said aloud the words I wished to say
So in this letter I made sure that you know
The hurt that went on inside my body and soul
Listen carefully you can hear my heart beginning to slow
With every word you read
It becomes close to stopping
Don't cry and tell me now that you care
Calm yourself down and stop apologizing
I tried to hold back my black tears
But I had to let it all unfold
To explain to you what was wrong
And now I can live peacefully knowing my story was told...
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