Your my role model..

How could you do this..?
what did i do wrong..?
did i turn my back..?
or did i ignore your calls..?

please let me know..
some way..
some how..
but it's too late..

did i hurt your feeling..?
make you feel bad..?
let you down..?
or forget to be your best friend..?

i let you down..
made a different life..
didn't let you in it..
i made that mistake..

you brought it upon yourself..
that i didn't care anymore..
that i hated you..
that i didn't love you..

really it is on me..
i do care still..
i don't hate you..
i do love you.. i always will..

you killed yourself..
because my stupid mistake..
i regret that day..
i walked away..

i wish i could say sorry..
but your in your grave..
you went upon the gun..
to solve everything..

really it ruined you..
it ruined me too..
it ruined your life..
it ruined mine..

i am so sorry..
i acted so rude..
i broke the promise..
i had made to you..

i hope you can forgive me..
for i am doing the same thing..
since you were my role model..
i will do the same thing..