My secret pain

Wondering What u r gonna do now that Ur on Ur own,
I think u still need help, but mom says Ur grown.
It's like my heart is torn in 2 different directions,
It seems that my sadness is The biggest infection.
It's like we aren't even a family anymore,
From crying so much my eyes get sore.
Laughing and smiling, don't seem so easy now,
I'm trying to talk but i dont know how.
I'm crying inside, and i need a friend,
please help me, don't leave me by myself to fend.