I have nothing more to say

by x325xRunawayTrainx103x   Aug 20, 2005


This school week has been hell
guidance exaggerated everything, why did they have to tell?
they called my parents and told them about me cutting
i swear it's something my mother has been wanting
Now my family hates me and said i should hurt myself right
i didn't do anything at all, i don't want to fight
I close my eyes when i hear them yelling
i want to just run away without telling
Nobody can find me, nobody can reach me
I just need to get out and live freely
Everyone is asking me questions, am i OK?
I am left in tears with nothing to say
My mother says she doesn't want to handle it
Now who am i to put up with?
More family, that's who is bringing me down
My soul shattering is such a loud sound
I sit and cry and nobody hears me
Nobody understands me clearly
I just want this to be over
I don't want to hear my mother say "i wish i could disown her"
I don't want to hear these things
Your words and actions hurt, the hitting actually stings
Just someone tell me it's over now
whisper, talk, or yell it, i don't care how
I want it to disappear, just everyone go away
I'm left crying and speechless, i have nothing more to say

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  • 20 years ago

    by Tiffany

    The guidance counselors have to tell
    or they can lose their jobs.
    I went through a similar thing
    Friday when a teachers aide
    discovered my poem. Be
    careful though, they can
    actually send you off to
    a mental hospital. I've been
    to those a few times..
    People can be so cold and
    unfeeling at times. They dont
    really understand the pain you
    go through, and why you cut
    I suppose. Cutting is seen as
    a poor coping skill, but it is a
    source of relief. Most cutters have
    intense emotional feelings. I use
    to cut at times.. and the blood
    draining away was like the
    problem itself draining away.
    No other coping skill could
    replicate that exact feeling for
    me. It took me awhile to stop,
    and many cold comments to
    get stronger. In the end you
    will get stronger, and realize
    that you don't need all of
    the people who never believed
    in you.

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