Trying

Help me get out of here!
Don't let me sink in this hole
Don't ignore me; don't glare
I didn't know I'd play this role

It's not my fault this happened
I didn't do any of this
So quit trying to blame me
Everything just went amiss

It may seem like I'm okay
But I'm not, you're wrong
I put on my pretty mask
And pretend that I am strong

I never cry in your presence
I'm always embarrassed or shy
But inside I am crying
Always asking myself why

Why did all this happen?
Why did it turn out this way?
Just give me a break from all this
Just let me go away

None of this is right
I never thought this would be the way it turned out
I'm not sure that it can get better
I have too many doubts

It's not like it just started
It's been going on for years
I don't understand it
This was one of my biggest fears

I'm sorry when I'm sad
Or when I'm angry and depressed
It's so hard not to be
When you're completely stressed

Just please accept me and love me
And give me a little slack
I'm trying to be better
I'm trying to find my way back