I'm Sorry 8-24-05

I'm sorry for the way i am
I should have let you known
I was scared to see how you would react
but my feelings have showed
i didn't want you to get mad
and i know you still are
as i try to talk to you, you seem to get far
far away from me as you no longer speak
to what i have done i feel so weak
i lost all my strength to hold on
as what we are i believe it's gone
as i try to find you on the other side
you seem to not notice so then you try to hide
but i can't change what happened cause i still care
it was one mistake that got you scared
I'm sorry for what i did, I'm sorry i hurt you
but you don't understand what I'm going through
i had no choice but to go
but i came back just to let you know
i am hurt as much as you are
you don't see how slowly it gets hard
just to deal with it each and everyday
it can't stop what's happening from what people say
you have to admit it's not easy
when i tell you I'm hurting, you have to believe me
I'm young and hopeless
not another day being careless
as i scream my lungs out just for you to hear me right
as it screams out more to other side
where you are at so you can hear
that i need you to be near from what i fear
as apart and distance we are
i know you are not that far
because even though you lost trust in me
you still have that special part in me that i keep
as i look back and cry
i want to start over as i realize....

I'm Sorry.....