This Is What I Want....

I want that one to love
But knowing I won't get it
Waiting as I sit with
Dreaming of this handsome guy
But then changing into
Someone that I don't want to of

I pray for kind love
Not torture in the heart
Especially, on the mind
I don't want no brain wash
Or the confusion that could
Cause a new story from my mind

My one mate shall know
That I choice from my own
Not from him to brain wash,
But no one understands me
Going around thinking that
I got it under control
Feeling like I'm shining with glory
But it doesn't work that way
I have learned from now!

Don't you see me standing?
Don't you wanna know where I'm headed?
I think you do...
Just it's hard for you to understand!

Feeling lonely just shatters your soul
Feeling misery just shatters the heart
I live a life where I take it all in
And pay for my sin or my mistakes!

This is how my feelings are
When confusion & sorrow mix!

**Poem of sorrow that I had when I was dreaming!!!** Plz Rate/Comment! Thanks for reading & Have a good day!