Emotions

My emotions run wild as fire.
I can't control my anger, pain, or desire.
They're everywhere I turn with no escape.
Giving me thoughts of my own twisted fate.

Confusing me leaving me dumbfounded.
Aggravated, irritated with a heart pounding.
Each pound reminds me of my pain.
How no one understands the emotions that course my veins.

How could they understand when neither do I?
How do I seek help when its me I despise?
My own emotions will be my end
as they switch on and off with no warning.

Bipolar some may call it but that's not it.
I'm not abnormal, pitiful or sick.
I just have problems with emotions I don't deal with.
Emotions that have taken me over from within.

My constant internal conflict with myself.
Hating me, despising me, disguising myself.
With my emotions at the reins I can't be trusted.
I say and do things that leave even me disgusted.

A life of their own that's what they've got.
These emotions of mine make me someone I'm not.
Maybe one day the reigns will fall in my hands,
and I'll take my life back from all these emotions.
Till that day pray for my soul
that one day these preys called emotions will let me go.