Away-dying from love

Washing Away
Wasting Away
drinking away
Watching from the outside
As I murder myself
Watching myself lie and slowly die
Can't stop it from falling away
Its just turning gray
Throbbing in my head won't go away
The world is falling away
Can't find a reason to stop it
Plan out my manslaughter
I know the right cuts
the right mixtures
how to make it fast
or painfully slow
My words, thoughts, feelings locked inside
They are eating me alive
I can't stop
I don't believe in this world anymore
Don't believe
Nobody can save me
Dying from love
I watch from the inside
As I hurt the ones I love
As I see me hurt myself
As the past just keeps repeating
Done, dead, can't rise above