How I Said "I Love You"

B r e a t h e in, and hold it in
gather all the courage, summon up stored sanity
the cd is in with volume max, Slipknot's "Wait and Bleed"
hoping, wishing, begging, praying, that the time is right
unable to say it to his face, get up, turn off the lights
sit back down beside him to put feelings into words
but all that's said seems sappy, stupid, so absurd
read his expression of confusion in concealment of dark
frustrated, screaming, exploding, yet no sound escapes the heart
why does nothing work out right? does he have secrets too?
why will nothing make him see this simply complex view?
screaming, yelling, but he's consumed in an imperfect silence
the commotion not heard by him was muted by defiance
calming down internally, wishing for him just to speak
CLICK the cd player saying it's done with "Wait and Bleed"
last track of the burnt cd ends adding to the silence
his smile spreads, though unseen, it helps in building confidence
somehow in the darkness he grabs a hand, holding it close and tight
he leans in ever closer, and whispers "it's all right"
now then
b r e a t h e out, and follow his lead