So Tired

Tired of wondering about us
Or whether she even cares
The pain in my heart
Nothing else compares

Tired of all the games
That she likes to play
Lack of food, lack of sleep
Is now a part of my every day

Tired of all the lies
All the broken promises
Lying awake in darkness
Questioning what this is

Tired of being so naive
Being her personal jester
Trying to get mad, trying to hate
Will that make it easier?

Tired of dreaming
Her eyes, her smile, her kiss
Angry at myself
For letting her make me feel like this

Tired of pretending
Our lives will be one
Living in a fantasy
In reality...she's done

I'm just so tired......