Nobodies there when they should be

This sucks but people suck even harder soooo whatever

Dry blood makes it hard to write
Stinging with every letter
Was there a different way to deal?
With my pain a little better

Can you not see through?
My little happy act
I know that you know better
Although my mask is intact

I know I tend to hide the way
I'm feeling when it matters
Just like the way I tend to watch
My glass heart as it shatters

But when you look at me
Can you tell me it's alright?
You can tell me you're there a million times
But you weren't there that night

Even when I reach out to you
It seems I come back depressed
Because it seems the situation
Didn't turn out like I had guessed

When these days grow cold
It seems no one is around
I feel my wrist start screaming
Without making a sound

So where were you?
When I sat on my bed
And cut myself
And watched as it bled

You could have been more helpful
Could have helped me negotiate
Past these hopeless feeling
Instead you left me to contemplate

Contemplate how things are going
And if I wish to still move on
But you were not there to convince me
So my life I have withdrawn