Depression will always win

I used to think forever
But maybe I was wrong
I used to think forever
But is our love really that strong
So much hope floating up so high
Out of reach into the sky
I thought the pain was worth it
I thought it really was
Remember those days
So perfect, so true
We drempt dreams
That now make me blue
Stories of forever
Promises for life
How did all the happiness end
Why was there one little fight
You're still by my side
And I still call you mine
But why won't my head let me push these feelings aside
Am I going crazy
Can I see things that aren't there
Feel things so untrue
Confusion consumes me
I don't know what to do
Should I go on living the way I do
Or should I change
I do take you for granted
As much as I try not to
And I do need you
Maybe I should let you go
Try live life without you
I think that I would die
Maybe I would make it through
But I'm still so scared
So scared of losing you
Before you all I remember is Hate
Heartache and blood
You try so hard to make me smile
But depression will always win
It's a battle you will lose
Why are you still here
Why do you even care
No one else does
I guess you should know the truth
My eyes won't seem to dry
Every night I cry and cry
Maybe you'd be proud
Tears falling from my eyes rather then my wrists
But then again
Which is really better
I'm sorry and I do love you
I truely do

*7/9/05* Please comment and rate, me and my boyfriend nearly broke up and yeah!