Untitled Depression

Fear hides behind every corner
Sorrow dwells in the darkness of my life
No hope for understanding the reason to this pain
Im trying to let go, but Im holding on too tight
Memories have flooded back, drowning me in a bath of black
Those who hurt me could just say Im sorry
But compassion is what they lack
I could just end my life, take a knife and slit my wrist
All I need is a little push, Ill do it if you insist
Dont pity that I cry, and I hate the life I live
Nothings fair Ive realized thatvieand people have only pain to give
So treat me like a thoughtless puppet, laugh at me if you must
Go ahead Im use to it, because in my life there is no just
Dont expect me to help you, when you need a helping hand
No one was there to help me when I fell, so why should I help you stand?
People just dont get it, they all think that I dont care
But tell me this, would you help others, when no one in your life was there?
I guess you think Im selfish, or maybe Im not faithful
But if everyone turned their back on you, would you be very greatful?
Even through the misery I tend to show a smile, knowing in my heart Ill heal in just awhile
And even though I keep these feelings hidden everyday
Others need to realize, my tears are the words that I cant say

* not my best work, but hey poetry is used to let out emotions, its not just for the talanted*talented