Its Hard To Fly

Its harder that I thought to fly,
To let go of the tears that I cry,
To let the flowers bloom and grow,
To stop the pain that I'm afraid to show.

I'm trying to force on a happy grin,
But there's still so much hurting deep within.
Tears are falling before I sleep,
Silent tears, I cannot weep.

I try to grab onto someones hand,
But I guess you don't really understand,
Why I'm like this and why I bleed,
And why I wish to that deep.

As I watch my scars slowly fade,
I long and wish to turn to the blade,
But I promised I'd stop this pain,
But why am I wanting to do it again?

I have to stay strong and calm as well,
I promised I wouldn't fall into that hell,
Have I learnt a lesson yet?
Are their friends that I forget?

Everytime I look into that glass,
Wondering when this mood will pass,
Staring at my reflection of that frown,
Wondering I will be feeling down.

I sewed my skin up to help it heal,
But my hearts still bleeding I stilll feel,
I'm still falling and no one can see,
That I'm still fighting still fighting with me.