Do I Live?

My life ends here,
As i walk off that long dark pier
My time ends here,
Give my love to those who were dear.

Why live
What on earth do i have to give
Why stay
I only provide delay

I don't deserve
To be here healthy and alive
I want to take one giant dive

Why me
The answer to that is so simple
It is the reason to why i take this small pill
The bad person i am
I cannot control
Or maybe i can

The monotony of me
Is only what i see
My self-hatred
Is why i want to be dead

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