Words

I look at your picture Shaking my head Holding tears in my eyes can't believe what I said. "I don't need you Most of all don't love you anymore" I hate myself for saying those awful words Now it is 8 months since you died And I can't bring you back again. It's my fault I shouldn't have said those words. If I hadn't then you'd still be alive. Why did you go? Was that my punishment for those words? I didn't mean what I said. I was lying. It was all a joke. Please come back to me. Please tell me you love me. I sit here remembering the days we used to share. The times we held each other and got lose in each other's eyes. Oh how I got lost in your baby blue eyes, never wanting to leave, but I did. I hurt you with those words of hate. Oh how I wish I hadn't said those words. I didn't mean them. I did need you and most of all; I loved you and still do. It pains me to know that you will never be with me again. I will never see you again. I hide my tears when I say your name, but the pain in my heart remains the same. Though I smile and seem carefree, there's no one who misses you more than me. I wish I could take the words back that I said and have you here holding me again. I'm sorry and I love you. Those are the words that I meant. I should have told you that long ago instead of those awful words. If only I can bring you back so i could hear your words of how you feel toward me. I know i hurt you and I'm so sorry. Now that you're gone, I realized what a HUGE mistake I made. All because of those hateful words that I didn't meant. I'm sorry...