The Wall of Control

Smirks contort your lips bleakly
Breaking down the wall I created
I know that you are condemning me
You will one day control who I am

Yesterday my wall was built up high
Today it is crumbling beneath me
Tomorrow it could be destroyed
But I will remain strong to spite you

As your lips gently curl with lies
Distorting beyond the recognition of love
With hope fading from the luster of your eyes
Bleeding with the broken trust you held

Breaks appear on this once seamless wall
Cracking to crumble in as you appear
Allow your tendrils to snake in to overwhelm
Someday you may gain your control

Yesterday my wall was being destroyed
Today it is ruins under my feet
Tomorrow it will not ever be remembered
But I will gather the pieces to build it anew

Your arm encircles my waist once more
A flicker of regret so that I now remember
A gleam of impeccable teeth flash nearby
You are gaining a new hold over me

The dust I clutch in my cupped hands
Confusion, apathy, destruction, and weakness
No more towers to keep me safe inside
No more walls to block out the pain in life

Crumbled dust of what had been so strong
A gentle caress breathes my dead name
You may win this latest fight or not
But I promise you that I will be strong

Yesterday I gathered the broken pieces
Today I patched a feeble barrier
Tomorrow I will have a safe haven
But you will forever watch to try again

And I promise to remain strong forever
While you wait I will continue on
Me living my life is my way for control
You waiting to pounce gives me hope

This time you never took control
My wall was here to protect me
And here it will stay to keep me safe
Protecting me from you I'm in control