I didn't do anything and once again, it's a fight
My mother and I again, nothing CAN be alright
While the family is gone for the day and said i couldn't go
I'm going to do what i want, i don't care if they would say no
I'll take half the pain killers of every bottle we got
I'll take anything harmful, anything they bought
I'll keep them in my room in-case of an emergency
Like when i want to leave permanently
After i put them into my drawer
I looked through all my stuff i had there from before
Disks with sad poems on them that i wrote
drugs, little memories and knives with a little bad note
With every bad thing, there should be something good though
Like these pictures that had happiness show
My friends and I, smiling and having so much fun
I started to cry because they cry from the things I have done
And i know they love me, that not my reason for these tears
It's just I'm afraid I'll end up leaving them too soon by a number of years
I'm so scared that something will happen while I'm being stupid
It'll be my mistake, nothing that any of yous did
And so I'm left, so angry at nobody but ME
Why can't i get over these habits quickly?
Why can't I be happy and fix the things i have done
Why can't i give up, be OK, and say that the devil has won?
Because this knowledge of my works and this pain
It's making my feelings go insane
I hold my cries on the inside
And tell my friends I'm OK, but i know i lied
So Lord, Please, give me another chance
Let me stay here, take a look at me, not a quick glance
I want to stay, but depression and addictions have taken the best of me
Sadness and madness are filling me up quickly
I'm sorry for everything i did to you
I'm sorry for saying you weren't at all true
But can't you please forget and forgive
Can't you give me another chance to live
I don't care about family, we can still fight
They don't like me because of my mother, who cares right?
I don't need them but i need my friends
I'm crazy about them, let me stay as my life mends
So please help me get my life back on track
I want to see a happy kid when i look back
I know it'll be hard and i know it'll take time
I know it'll be killing me on the inside
But however much time, I'll wait
And i know that withdrawal is something i will hate
But whatever it takes to make my friends eyes stop tearing
Whatever stops the things they've been hearing
I'll go through so much pain to stop this for them
I need you like they need me, please....amen
