If you wondered where I went

Looking at my suicidal poems makes me sick
That I couldn't pull myself out of something not even that thick
I spent a year of my life cutting an depressed
I could have been laughing and not been stressed
I didn't take the help when it was easy to do
I cried myself to sleep because I was weak and couldn't pull through
The scars on my wrist remind me of my past
And I thank god every day that it didn't last
I did something so stupid that didn't help at all
I should have picked myself up when I started to fall
There is so much more to live for then tears and pain
For the year my emotions I literally drain
Its hard to listen when your going through this
But go get help its and opportunity you don't wanna miss
Do it now before it is to late
Please help yourself please don't wait

* I used to be anorexic and cut my worst. For over a year I was depressed and had no personality when everyone knew me as crazy Alissa and athletic. I let people and rumors get the best of me. I found help and I am very thankful of that. If you are going through this there is hope! I remember people telling me that when I was sick and I was like how would you know? But I know! Find help as soon as possible this isn't how you want to spend your life *