I wanted to...

Now that I look back
into my past,
I see all the things
I wanted to do with you.
I wanted to be your girl,
I wanted to feel
your gaze
only on me,
and feel your heart
within my grasp.
It was something
my heart wanted so badly,
that it nearly made my life
black,
and bleak...
I changed from that point on...
you changed me Raymond.
You made me afraid,
you made me
keep my heart a secret,
and I never told a soul
that I loved you...
you taught me what love was,
and made me feel
that feeling I have never felt.
You opened my eyes,
and showed me
what a painful thing love was...
but I followed you all the way.
I wanted you so badly,
and wished every night,
that you would love me in return,
as I felt the most painful
feeling I had ever known.
I didn't know you,
yet you were
so important to me...
I wanted to be with you,
I wanted to show you
what I loved,
and keep you close to me
where we would
be together,
and learn from one another.
I wanted to give you my heart,
and show you
that I cared about you
and that you were my
very first love.
But everything
went by too fast,
and before
I had my chance...
before I had my chance
to show you
how much you meant to me,
time was spent.
I had to leave...
I had to go.
But I wanted to
give you my heart so badly,
I wanted to claim you...
I wanted to
place my heart on yours
to show the world.