Used and In Love(any suggestions for a title?)

I feel disgusting and used
But in love still
My stomach in knots
My thoughts, they kill

Beaten and Battered
My raped soul breaks
Millions of pieces
Laying around for takes

Thousands of tears
My heart cries
In my own blood
My last hope lies

Wanting him to like me
No matter what it takes
Making the choices
I promised never to make

The claws of his love
Ripping out my insides
He's my life, he controls me
Theres no where to hide

He doesn't even care
What he did to me
But I can't blame him
It's my fault you see

Vulnerable and miserable
Willing to do anything
Not realizing in the morning
The pain it'd bring

His kiss, his touch
His every word
Hanging on so tight
Feeling absurd

He said he loved me
I knew it wasn't true
My heart still melted
And I did exactly what he wanted to

I didn't want him to think
That I wasn't strong
I woke up the next morning
Pretending nothing was wrong

We said nothing
Not even goodbye
But the more I saw him
The more I wanted to cry

I stayed strong all day
And didn't tell a soul
It got much worse
For two days I didn't go to school

I lay in bed
Sick with disgust
Feeling for him
So much more than lust

I went back to school
Pretending I was fine
Not saying a word
With only him on my mind

I made it through most the day
But I broke down finally
Crying so much everyone wondered
What was wrong with me

I wanted so much to tell them
But no words did I speak
Only tears of heartache
Proving that I'm weak

That night I lay in bed
Tossing and turning
Crying so much
My eyes were burning

I finally fell asleep
Only to dream about him
And the way he told me
He didn't care about them

In the morning I woke up
With tears in my eyes
Because I know everything
He ever told me was a lie

I feel disgusting and used
But in love still
My stomach in knots
My thoughts they kill

**I'm open on any suggestions to help better this poem...especially the title**