The truth behind their lies if only you could have realized

6 feet under
just doesn't sound that deep
is sleeping for ever really that weak
laying down your head, you wonder
as you close your eyes
being with the angels must be a good time
knowing that the hardest part
will only be the leap;
for your afraid of flying
yet cannot seem to find your place with your feet
your making up your mind
you know that time is running out
its time to make the decision
and you know the answer without a doubt
cause the loneliness that you feel
you can take no more
and no one questions why
just like every time before
but they are too busy to realize
that this time it is for sure
no longer an empty promise
left upon the floor
the pain you feel
is growing greater
more than any time before
your head starts to ache
no more you scream to the walls
enough i cant take no more
with that you out an end to it all
you overcome your fears
well at least thats what you think
but your head yet again starts to ache
no one congratulates you this time
and you know you've make a big mistake
when the tears you cry
are lost within your eyes
and find their way to mine
once again I'm left here all alone
asking the question why
why you just couldn't see
the truth behind the lies
you thought no one would miss you
well did you forget about me?
but yes its too late
you've left me for the sky
can you hear my cries
tell me is being with the angels
really a good time?
no? well I'm glad
and as you stand
at the golden stairs
waiting patiently
to learn your fate
i hope you will see
all you never could before
you always had me
my heart my mind my soul
all for you an open door
and the love you got from me
is one which makes the angels glare
for it is one they cannot share
loving and defying
kind and strong and true
you see you thought you had nothing
but i gave all of me to you
the loneliness you felt
was only in your mind
for you created it all by yourself
it was the lie which made you want out
and now you've lost all you that own
its nobodies fault but yours
you turned your heart into stone
take the blame as now you see
and realize 6 feet is really that deep
sleeping forever doesn't matter
for it was only you who was weak
and now you are among a factor
another soul the demons have to keep