It\'s been one year...

I can\'t believe it\'s been a year
Since you were taken from right here
They shot you down and pulled you out
I knew you died, without a doubt

They stole you from me right then and there
They honest to god really didn\'t care
And all the tears I shed that day
Were amplified knowing your not ok

I hope the pain has gone away
You taught me what it meant say
I love you and I always will
The day you died, I sat on our window sill

Staring into the black sky
Wondering if you see me cry
And since you died I forgave them, I think it was right
This helps me to think all through the night

And I love you still to this day
And that won\'t change, even if the skies go gray
I promise not to give up ever
You told me never, and I swear if you want, I\'ll stay here forever

I\'m running out of places, to hide my fear
And as I look for another cup for my tears
As I lay another black rose on your grave
I wish I could kiss your lips one more time...maybe it wasn\'t your heart I couldn\'t save

I\'ll make new memories with you
Since you\'re gone maybe you\'ll find this true
I\'ve lost my fears of dying
And I lost my hopes of trying

For all the things they\'ve done to you
Or all the things they\'ve drawn to truth
I never thought it\'d get harder to keep my promise of ever
But I\'ll keep it forever

If this creates some sort of suspence
Let it crumble to my expence
Every time I stare into the sky
And I see all the stars die

I\'m on my way out and I\'m keeping it fine
Drowning my fears in bottles of wine
Living it up and drinking it down
Shattering my halo with a frown

I\'d love to go back to the day that killed us all
The fire on my skin; now it\'s peeling
I\'m sorry if I\'m not good enough
But this isn\'t too rough

So let\'s make a point to search the kitchen
Picking out knives and pills and tons of reasons
Like a scratch for itching
I\'ll blow a hole through my head for every season

Yeah that\'s what I said
Each hole had a reason to go through my head
And I\'ll carve your name on each and every one
So they know that you\'re what was loaded in the gun

But that was about a year ago
When I thought I gave up all the feelings
And I tried let you know that I was about to go
Instead I gave up and shot the ceiling

I fell to my knees and started to cry again
What am I going to do without you
It\'s like trying live without a friend
Realizing living like this either way I\'m screwed

I realized I have to fufill my promise to you
No matter how much I wish it wasn\'t true
I\'ll think about you every day even after I die
And I promise, I\'ll stay here and I won\'t lie...

To the one I\'ll always love, hun it\'s been a year already without you...
I hope it\'s nice up there, I know you\'re up there, and I\'m hoping someday we can be together again...