Shame of my love

My heart is pounding.
over and over.
my heart is hurting.
over and over.

my head is pounding.
over and over.
my heart is bleeding.
over and over.

thinking of you brings me here.
here in the surface of death.
the surface of fear.
i thought i loved you.
but you turned my blue skies to gray.
and you made me have pain.
so i took the pain out on you.
i murdered you.
in the shame of my love.