He Loves Me, He Loves Me Not

I sit here and wonder
If he loves me or not
Because my heart aches for him
Quiet a lot

A blood red rose in my hands
Petals falling, along with tears
Never have I needed love from someone so bad
Never in all of my years

I chant he loves me
Then he loves me not
I want to keep him in my heart
Till the day I rot

The blood red petals
Are almost gone
I bite my lips and repeat the phrase
I know Iâ??m almost done

The very last petal falls
I wish I had known it all along
â??He loves meâ?? I whisper
But I know now, I did something wrong

I look at my wrists
There is a deep cut shaped like a dove
Slowly I write on the wall
â??I died for loveâ??

I had always hoped
That he loved me as much as I loved him
I wish he were here now
My world is going dim

I lay down one last time
The thought of him in my head
I remember how this all started
A white rose ending in red

Tears slowly fill my eyes
Because I needed him so bad
I hope he doesndozenfeel as I did, when Iâ??m gone
Please god, donâ??t let him be sad!!!

I pull a new white rose into my arms
It doesnâ??dozene long before itâ??s fully covered and dripping red
And he was the very last thought
The last thought in my head

I smile at the dove
And I start to cry
I remember once I made a promise
And the promise was about how I would die

That day I told him
My last I love you
I told him I would die for him
And now that has come true