Prayers

I push myself,through another day
So miserable, i hate it this way
the pain sits, and overwhelms inside
as a part of me, it slowly dies

my emotions, they fade to gray
i kneel down, and begin to pray
"I know I've doubted, i know I've lied,
I know if i were you, stop your cries"

smile at my wounds, lick then clean
grow more addicted, a bloody fiend
shush you quiet, please don't speak
these scars i have, say I'm weak

my mind wonders, through the dark
with each turn, it leaves a mark
a scar hidden, beneath the layers
god punishes, ignores my prayers