Never had the chance

I never got to say goodbye,
I never told you I was sorry,
I never confessed my feelings for you,
I never got to say, 'I love you'

There were always chances to say these things,
I was just too foolish, I was blind, unguided,
If I had just gone back in time, I'd have the chance,
But now is now, then was then.

The endless things I should have done,
Are trapped inside me, waiting to be released,
I'm bursting like a bag too full of things,
Because I was selfish, I took but never gave.

You were like my teddy bear,
I love you so much but you never knew,
Nothing would destroy my love for you,
Not even if death came and took me too.

I try not to cry when I think of you,
But it's like trying to stop a hurricane,
I think of you all the time,
It is as natural as breathing for me.

I want my soul to be released from this life,
I want to join you and hold you close,
I want to feel happiness again,
I want to remember that strange sensation.

I want to tell you how I feel,
I want to see your ice-melting smile,
I want to hear your sweet laughter,
Which makes me so full of love.

I am tossed upon stormy seas,
I'm crashing against rocks but I don't care,
I'm bleeding, I'm dying, but I don't mind,
All I want to do is see you.

I call to the heavens just to hear your voice,
I see you in my eyes, but it's all illusions,
I run away and cry forever,
Cry until I meet you once more.