I just don't understand!

I remember all the times
I'd cry and sink my head
Thinking that i couldn't hav u
Wanting to be dead

Knowing my life was meaningless
Without you by my side
And if we were together
In you i could confide

And after all the work i did
Fingers down my throat
And u sed that u did like me
I thought there would be hope

So we would meet in secret
We'd kiss all through the night
And finally i realised
That life was finally right

But soon i hit reality
That u were jus playin me along
Tellin others that u luved them
That me and u were wrong

When i finally told u
I knew the real you
You sed u didn't really care
N i was nothing new

I thought i'd always luv u
Never stop the pain
Without u kissing an holding me
My life had nothin to gain

Then after a few weeks of torture
I saw another boy
Then thought that maybe i liked him
My heart it filled with joy

You were not the knight i wanted
The one i'd always love
You wernt the great white angel
Sent from up above

So know i finally get it
That u were just a crush
Not the my one and only love
Not even very much

Plz comment coz i NEED to know what u think!