The voice of a razor blade

My life is empty, I have nothing
no one to care for
no one to care for me
I don't have a future, I don't want a future
Do I want to see tomorrow?
What is tomorrow?
More hurt, more pain, more emptiness, more loneliness
I see a reflection out of the corner of my eye
the bright sun, hitting a razor that lies on my table, reflecting onto
my face
Is this the answer?
Is it calling my name?
It says to me,
I can take away your hurt
you will have no more pain, no more loneliness, no tomorrow
Is this the answer?
what do I have?
I have nothing
I grab the razor,
feels cold in my hand
One cut, that's it
it will all be over
no more hurt, no more emptiness, no more loneliness
I take a deep breath,
could this be my last?
one quick slice on my left wrist,
I gasp
one quick slice on my right wrist,
I gasp again
Bright red blood drips from my wrists, as the razor falls to the floor
I feel weak, fall to my knees,blood is dripping faster, brighter, blood is everywhere
my breaths begin to weaken
I hear the ringing of my phone
I cannot answer
a male voice calls out my name,
he says, I do love you, and I want to spend my life with you
Is it too late?
Can I stop the blood?
I'm too weak
too much pain, too much blood, too much loss
As tears stream down my face,
I fall to the floor
I close my eyes,
and take one last breath
I have no more hurt, no more pain, no more emptiness
no more tomorrow

Ok just so everyone knows, this is not about me, I would never kill myself over a guy, but unfortunately some people do...i write about whatever pops into my head!!!