Numb

Once again she sits by herself
in a dark cold room
head on her knees
crying wondering why it has gotten so bad
she fakes all her smiles and her laughs
covering up her frowns
walking in the rain so no one can see her tears
her heart is so numb
the voices in her head wont go away
she wonders why did she have to wake up today
confusion running through her head
wondering if she would be better off dead
one by one tears fall onto the floor
as she looks at her slices on her wrists that she gave herself yesterday that are still sore
she wonders, should I cut myself once more
Maybe this time a little deeper so this time her body falls to the floor
Will she see a light at the end of this dark tunnel
ending all she had
ending everything bad
she wonders or should she go on another day of feeling so numb and empty inside
faking more smiles covering up the frowns and tears that she always has to hide