An Old Friend

The Darkness now seems an old friend
Time spent with which will never end
It fills my being, blots out the light
In its embrace Im now held tight

Ive come to understand, that its a boon
That stops life encroaching, too soon
It holds your feelings far from reach
Sucks them from you, like a leech

In this way I know now it helps
Stops the pain that emotion whelps
With the loss still feeling tender and new
It dulls the pain till you start anew

For how could anyone live with this pain?
What little I feel makes my heart strain
The glimpses Ive had of its turbulent mass
Would surely kill me, before it would pass

So now I give thanks to my dulling friend
For making me empty my thanks I send
As it is I can still struggle on
Yet still I wonder, for how long?