Wondering, Pondering. Wishing

So many things I sit and wonder
Sit and write, sit and ponder
I sit and I feel torn asunder
I am slowly sinking under

I sit and feel this pain hit me
Drag me deep under a sea
A sea of grief, where I can see
What went wrong with you and me?

This loneliness tears me apart
Tears at my feeling, at my heart
It rips through me like a dart
And I wonder why did we part?

I know the reason, and they are fair
Though they are often hard to bear
Nothing to do with me, it seems unfair
I hate those who caused your pain, I swear

I feel so much sorrow for what you suffer
And I wish I could be your buffer
And this just makes it seem rougher
I long to hold the pain at bay, my lover