Branded by my pain

I need to feel
i need to know
that I'm alive
that my blood is still warm
and hasn't run cold
from all the pain
you've put me through
i need to see
my blood trickle down my arm
and drip to the floor
there is purpose in my madness
not just a savage attack on my body
its to make sure i still feel
the pain as the knife slices my skin
over and over
leaving my skin red
puffy, and bleeding
and branded by my pain