Another cigarette burns

Another night comes to an end
I sit and re-cooperate, my thoughts i defend

Laying on my roof watching the smoke fade away
Wondering what ever happened to make everything not OK

my family...they're gone, i barely talk to them anymore
And the side i do like, well my mother is already lying to them some more

they don't want to see me now on Thanksgiving
What did i do to my mother to make her mad BESIDES living?

The flame ignites and i light up again
When will this smoking kill me, WHEN?

My friends, believe me, i love them ALL to death
I'll always love them until my last breath

But some of them are not the same anymore
I don't know why some of them have changed for

some are so stuck up and think they need to be on top
They put everyone else down until i tell them to stop

The cigarette burns down and so do i
It starts to out-ten as i ask myself why

Why did people leave before me
How come i can't leave fast and willingly?

So many times i have overdosed on pills
So many teenager this kills

But I'm realizing I'm not 6 feet under
And that really makes me sit and wonder

Why didn't you take me when i should've been dead?
I thought MAYBE i was gone, but i woke up instead

Another cigarette to relieve my stress
Trying to resolve and figure out this mess

I love him but i like someone else too
The one i love caused this pain from the things he use to do

Should i move on and start over again?
Should i just ignore it all and just leave it to be a friend?

The night rolls on and so i do
I got to live another day, yeah I'll give it a try

But just a fact, I'm running on E
I don't know when but pretty soon i will be empty

Without family and with friends that change
I have no time to rearrange

Sometimes i feel that I'm always in the way
Sometimes my actions mean what i say

Like when i cut and burn, what do you think?
I'm doing drugs and i always drink

My mind is my only enemy and only fear
Honestly, DO YOU REALLY THINK i WANT to be here?

I'll end this night as my stomach turns
Another day of hell...another cigarette burns