Feelings

Some nights I stay up late and cry,
Other times I feel as if i could die!
In my life I feel not loved,
I alwayz get kicked around or shoved.
But why should I be happy?
How can I if im treated so crappy?
Everyday seems like a battle.
I get thrown around like a baby's rattle.
Sometimes everything can be so scary.
Why cant I just be happy and merry?
For all my faluts, I am to be blame.
I'm the one who has to take all the shame!