I remember when the pain became an addiction to me
I couldn't go a day, an hour without my blood to see
The pain relieved the hurt inside
The day people left me that was the day I died
Now I'm left here, left alone for good
I have nothing left,
Alone on the pathway to life is where I stood
What am I doing here?
Why haven't I gone?
Took my chance,
And with that glass, my skin should have torn
I thought of the people I would hurt
I stopped, to throw the glass away, forever in the dirt
Forever, means a long, long time
And that's what I had planned to do
Forget the pain, the release it gave me
And battle through day by day, until finally I was through
One month passed, I was going great
Not a thought had crossed my mind
And then that day, where I sat and cried
A week ago from now, I lost another person I loved
He is forever gone, and again my emotions were shoved
I remember the good times we shared
But no more, I took advantage of all the days when
When, we laughed, and when he hugged me to let me know he cared
But that will never happen, he left us here
As did everyone else, they left me and now I sit in fear
That day I was in pain, I hurt like never before
I went home and broke that one month
And now all I crave is more
Iâ??m back to where I started
Back to when I thought I could go no more
Back to when I almost left this world
I almost left it three times before
And now that is my one wish, to leave and never come back
Because I'm alone here, and the strength to stay I lack
I have returned to the days where that glass pierced my skin
I have returned to when I couldnâ??t go without a day,
That is where I am now, I guess the devil has a win
Strength I don't hold
Happiness, slowly dying away
I'm left here again
And I don't want to stay
I don't want to hurt anyone either
So instead I hold that glass to my skin
And hope to bleed forever
Forever means a long long time
And that's how long I keep to this
Because the hurt inside will never leave
And the last thing I say Is that it's never going to be me,
I'm not the one you'll miss
