Complicated Addiction

by Eibutsina   Oct 15, 2005


I do really not like my life today
I just wish I were someone else
My day has gone from bad to worse
But I really have done it to myself.
It's as though it's me attracting trouble
I appear my own worst enemy
I never know when to give up or shut up
When just to let things be.
Forever persisting and nagging on
I have to insist pushing the issue
When things ordinarily fade with time
I force the memories to continue.
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
To try and make people see
These aren't malicious intentions
Of cruelty and hatred coming from me
It's just the way that I am
I do not know why that is
I do know I don't like myself
That I have to change always doing this
They say the first step is the hardest
Coming to grips with reality, making an admission
Of making my life excessively complicated
I admit to having an addiction.

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  • 20 years ago

    by Naaria

    Eirisa, your poems are so darn awesome I love to read them!
    This one isn't my FAVORITE but it is pretty darn good!

    Keep it up and submit more! :D

  • 20 years ago

    by Chelsey

    Well that is always the first step, admitting you have one...secondly i truly hope this poem was not about you..oh my goodness if it is..what do I say??
    I know so many people don't like themselves these days but you for one should like yourself..Of course there will be a few things we don't like about ourselves..I have a few things I don't like either and the part of not knowing when to shut up...sadly its in us all...You by far are a huge inspiration and whenever you feel this way you just have to think of ME! lol..no but really do..I'm sure it will help..Letting you know someone looks up to you and believes that you can change..for the better part now...I love you Eirisa and nothing will change that...Every night (seriously) you are in my prayers!
    With Love,
    Your lil titta!

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