Im not coming home

You sent me a message n this is what it said...
these are the words you gave me.....

i want to be friends but every time i see you i want to touch you and i want to hold you
but i know i cant do that ill just hurt you again...
it kills me to see you kissing other boys
it hurts so much inside...
i still love you exactly the same and
i know you love me....
but we could never be together again
i don't want to hurt you
it hurts so much to see you cry
you are always so upset...

that were your last words that you ever said to me it made me feel so bad...
all i want to do is hold you and keep you close for ever...
i love you so much but i wont get you back
now here are my last words...
i love you and i always will but even if you wanted me back you wouldn't get me
I'm so scared of feeling that pain again
i hate feeling like that...
like i don't have a reason to live
so thats it I'm gone and I'm not coming home...