The pain i've felt

The pain i've felt
The pain i hate
it all keeps coming back
i feel as if im going insane
i cant handle it
sometimes i just wish i were dead
i dont think i can take this shit anymore
i thought if i just ignored it
it would go away
but maybe i was wrong
im sick of cutting its not helping anymore
im sick of the drugs there fvcking me up
im sick of everyone lookig at me as if im a disease
im sick of hideing
i just wnt to like everyone else
i hate hateing myself for what he has done
he was meant to love me he was meant to be my father
well he really fvcked that up didnt he
am i meant to have all this hate inside me
am i meant to hate someone so much that i wish they were dead
am i meant to run and hide everytime i hear there name
maybe this is the end
its my tme to go
this is my last goodbye