Trust

I have always trusted you,
And you always took me for granted.
I did everything for you.
I though of you whenever i went out.
Whenever I went shopping,
I always thought about whether or not you'd like it.
You always cam first whether I knew it or not.
My life was all about you.
No more...
I gave you my heart,
And you took it apart.
I gave you my all,
And you threw it away.
What did I ever do to you?
I only loved you,
And you used it against me.
How am I supposed to love again?
How am I gonna heal?
I put my all,
My everything, into you.
And you could have cared less.
I cared about you...
I even took care of you.
I prayed for you every night.
You came to me when you were down and out,
I took you in and threw all others out.
I went against all my beliefs and rules,
I went against my parents rules.
And what'd you do?!
You.. hurt.. me..
Over and over again.
I refuse to be hurt again.
Not by you or any other man.
I can hear and feel my heart breaking,
As I sit and write this.
You were my life,
My love,
My all...
No more crying all night long,
No more having to lie to my family and friends.
It kills me to do this.
But I have no other choice.
You took my life away from me.
I can't keep hurting myself by trusting you.
How could you do this to me?
You told me you loved me.
Don't you love me anymore?
Everything I have ever believed in;
All the dreams I had of you,
The dreams I had for us...
They are falling into pieces around me.
You've hurt me for the last time.
No more false hopes and dreams.
No more depression.
I loved you so much.
Why do you hurt me so bad?
You've hardened my heart,
I never thought I'd ever feel this way.
I never thought I'd never feel again.
Things are so cold to me now.
The tears are burning my eyes..
I really do love you.
It's so hard to let go.
I don't want to,
But is for the best.
I did my best to understand you.
I've tried to understand where you are coming from.
But i just don't get why you treat me the way you do.
Maybe I never will...
You don't get it either.
You don't see past your own "things".
I was there for you when you found out about your parents.
And what did you do?!
You tried to take something that wasn't meant for you.
What you did succeed in taking,
Means a lot to me.
May not mean much to you;
But it was my world...
It is my world.
You.. are my world.
I can't hide my feelings for you any longer.
I will love you until the day I die.
But I will not..
I cannot,
Live my life knowing that you still love me,
But you don't care enough for me.
To leave the other girls alone,
And finally leave the pain in the past.
Take the chance to see the good,
That i see in you.
But none of that matters now
Until you prove to me that you really care,
I cannot do this anymore.
Who am I supposed to trust in,
Now that you're gone?