Oh jeez

Rocking back and forth
While tears stream down my face
I cringe of whats henceforth
Her heart is what i chase

Nothing can ease the pain inside
Not for either of us now
Things are ever changing
But never really ranging
Its always the same type of thing

I wish it all was easy
Thinking of it makes me queasy
We should be all right
Not ever fight

Its tearing me in two
Ripping me in three
All these words they say to me
Are slowing killing what i am

I don't know what to think
Or even what to do
My mind is swaying everywhere
This all used to be quite rare

Now i feel as if
Shes going away
Shes going away
Whats wrong with my life today?
All i hope is that she will stay

Even with these selfish thoughts
I only want her happiness
But now the other choice is gone
And it feels so wrong

I dare say she wants to be with me
Though i shall not she doesn't
I really don't know what to say
This day is just so Grey