Being me...

Can you imagine what it's like to be me,
trapped in depression trying to break free.
For so many years i have felt this way,
not just sometimes but every single day.
I wake up each morning with no hope,
end every night crying because i can't cope.
I can't help but concentrate on my pain,
It's near impossible to break this chain.
I have refused to let anyone get to near,
knowing the consequences might be servere,
because if you let someone into your heart,
there's a good chance they'll pull it apart.
So many friends i have pushed away,
knowing i will let them down if they stay.
Even though it's tough to let down your guard,
the silence in being alone is equally hard.
Can you imagine having so much pain inside,
with no-one there who you can confide.
Living in a house where if you start to cry,
your family don't even question why.
I live hoping that my future will be bright,
and that i wont forever have this fight.
That one day i will be a normal person,
i pray to god my condition wont worsen.
If it does i don't know that i will survive,
for i'm already struggling to stay alive.
My depression has taken away so many years,
and I have cried way too many tears.
So now i'm ready to give all i have to give,
if that doesn't work i hope i cease to live.