What would you say?

So today i tried to tell you
how i really feel
that the person you love me for
...just isnt real

i kept it from you for so long
... the darker side of me
the cutting depression,lonliness
and my longing to be free

to you my front is true
you believe every lie she says
but if you look in my bedroom for me
upon the floor is where she lays

this broken girl curled up
into a ball on the floor
tears streaming from her eyes
and her wrists so red and sore

what would you say if you saw
the real part of me?
would you be there to hold my hand?
or relize we arnt to be?