End of my life

Tears swell up in my eyes,
sadness becomes my life.
Slowly time passes by,
as I wait to die.

My bestfriend committed suicide,
why shouldn’t I.
I only wish,
is to join her up in the sky.

My heart is filled with hate,
there’s nothing left to say.
I can’t bare to see another day.
I stopped running, I ended this chase.

I was chasing what used to be,
what was once me.
a happy little girl
Worry free.

That’s now in the past,
the years went by fast.
It used to be a fairytale,
now it’s a nightmare.

Every single day,
I pull out my little blade.
I add to my collection,
called self-hate.

I hope I die,
I’ve given up a fight,
This is what feels right,
The end of my life.