Playing Tricks on my Heart

I can't decide
what's wrong with me
I might have lied,
but I just can't see.

Did I let my brain
play a trick on my heart?
So I wouldn't cry like rain
and fall apart?

I said I did not
love him any more.
But my brain and my heart have fought,
and I think my heart just scored.

Cuz I love him, I think
but again, not still.
But we are missing a link
and I won't give up without zeal.

So this poem isn't exactly finished, cuz i stopped feeling this way, but i decided to put it on here anyways.