Why I wear this mask

You look at me each day and ask
Why do I wear this mask
The one that hides what I feel
and shows a part of me thats not real
Do you expect me to answer why
As soon as I tell you you'll leave my side
I know you'll just walk away
because you won't have anything to say
I'm trying to deal with this on my own
but please don't leave me alone
The truth is I need your help
I've been thinking of hurtting myself
I want this knife to go deep in my skin
I don't like the world I'm living in
Too many things I have in my mind
People tell me I'll be just fine
I know they're giving me their advice
but they don't know what my life is like
I love this guy with all my heart
the problem is we're many miles apart
He was the one who put a smile on my face
and all my sadness he would erase
Can't forget the times we shared
he was the one who always cared
all his love for me is now gone
so I'm trying to move on, trying to be strong