Emotional Suicide Part Two

Wow really powerful poem! think weve all thaught about suicide at times but we get on with life, have just broke up with a bf of 1 n half years (as you can probably tell from how my style of writing has changes from being all soppy) lol! anyway am going on abit now.. hope if this poem does mean anything your all ok and things work out for the best because they will! look after yourself hun and thankyou for your comments sorry that i took a while to get back to you havnt been on here for a while! going to carry on reading... x

I cannot tell you how much I understand what you're going through. I have temptations to do the same thing, but eventually, I back out of it. I don't think suicide is the best option, nor will it ever be the option to problems, but sometimes, I do feel suicidal. And, I think of ways to hurt myself, so I can die and get it over with. Although, I know, if I did do it, I would afterward, regret it, and be in a living hell. I really do not think suicide is the answer, nor will it ever be... I know what you mean, by how you feel, people aren't listening.... I know exactly how you feel... I may not be you, so maybe not exactly, but atleast, I know somewhat where you're coming from; from my own personal experience. I will always be here to listen, if you ever need anyone to talk to.

You're a good writer. I am proud,you're writing, instead of really hurting yourself. It makes me sad to see myself hurting inside and to see others hurt, but sometimes, or now, I have realized, that I need to help myself, before I can help anyone else in this world, or else.... I'm gonna be a mess, always looking down on myself all the time, from trying to please others all the time, but myself, never seeming happy. Does this make sense? I am currently talking to a counselor. She's really nice. I've been to 8 psychologists/counselors so far, and it took this long. I am now age seventeen, and all my life, I've been told I'm retarded and would never make it in society,but I have... I just feel so bad, and from what I've been told is a traumatic thing to me, and hurts deeply. I know people may say horrible things to you, and may be totally ignorant, but ignore those people.... They will never understand. Just find people who've been through the same thing, and most likely, they will listen, not judge you, understand, and be there for you... Again, not mad at you, I just care, and never would want anything to happen to you.... I will always be here to listen, if you ever need a "true friend." And, no; not a manipulator, not a sleesh ball, not a judgmental person, not a two-face, none of that crap... I've been through that crap. I don't have any true friends, except, GOD.... in which is my true, hero..... So; anyway, hollar, if you need to talk.

((((((Big Hugs)))))))

Lots of love, always,

Michelle

Once again I find this heart wrenching...You best not do this...I will bite you if you do...It is very emotional and sad. It is an option that we all have though for those who take it...will you pay for it later is what i ask myself...Brillantly pieced together...keep up the good work.